I will be so glad when this year is finally over. It started badly when I crashed my car at a roundabout I’ve gone through a million and one times, and has gotten ever worse since. I have never had to out myself to as many people as I have this year, simply to try and get a job. I don’t know which government brought in the CRB checks, but fuck me! I just want a job, yet every job so far has asked to see a birth certificate or passport as proof that I’m entitled to work in my own fucking country! With my accent! I should be in a job right now. I had a driving assessment with Parcel Force a week ago, after applying for the job via a temp agency a week or two earlier when the agency put in the crb check. Over two weeks later, I’m still waiting for those checks to come back. This job is only temporary till xmas eve, and it’s now the 27th November, so it’s not going to be worth signing off JSA for less than 4 weeks work to only have to sign on again after less than a month. Oh, and after working and paying into the system for over ten years, I got made redundant one year ago to the day today, and when I went to claim JSA, I was told I’d get contribution based JSA. You know what that means? It means the government is paying me benefits based on the taxes / ni that I’ve paid in work, and I get fuck all else. Someone that hasn’t put the money in, that gets income based JSA, get’s to put in for extra financial help, like budgeting loans to furnish their home, travel expenses paid when they have to travel to hospital, free sight tests as and when needed, free prescriptions. It’s a bloody good thing I’m diabetic so don’t pay for my eye tests or prescriptions whether I’m in work or not as due to one thing or another, I’m on about 10 different meds per day, and at £7.80 per item, that £78 just on meds every 4 weeks!!!! I applied for ESA due to my health issues, but I’m not “ill enough” for them, yet I’m too ill for them to send me on a hgv driving course – what the fuck!!!! I’m either well enough to work, or I’m not well enough to work, and they want it both fucking ways!!!! Yes, I replaced the Focus with a new(ish) silver Beatle, but had to sell her to pay debts that I’d accumulated, and she was misfiring anyway (seriously, when it costs a tenner to drive 20-30 in a 2 litre VW bug, you’ve got a serious problem).
So, with 5 weeks left to 2014, I can gladly say this year can go fuck itself. I’ve had enough. This is before any of the bullshit I’ve read from the trans exclusionary radical feminists. Yes, it is all about you isn’t it? I transitioned from male to female in 1999 just to piss you off and fuck you over, when I only found out anything about radical feminists in 2012. Yes, I transitioned, took hormones and had surgery so I could invade female only spaces and rape radical feminists. Of course I’ll have to order a decent strap on to do that now seeing as I had surgery nearly 9 years ago, but let’s not let the truth or facts get in the way of good old fashined radical feminist paranoia and bullshit. I really don’t understand how they can believe the bullshit they peddle, and keep a serious look on their faces, but fuck it, they can kiss my big fat arse for all I care anymore, I’m done with that shit. If you read what they write about trans people and actually believe it, then I guess you’ll believe anything you read, so you’re not worth wasting my time over.
Fuck this year.